Being self aware has its benefits. Being self aware is also so soul sucking at times that I think my head is going to spin around a la The Exorcist. I can’t live a single day without considering my choices, wondering if I am doing this thing called living correctly, if I am doing enough, if I am doing too little, if I am hurting people, if I am allowing myself to be hurt by people.
It’s just a tad exhausting.
Thanks to everyone who has been around while I’ve been well, kind of a selfish mess, you know exactly who you are and I’m really going to do better by you. That’s part of this whole thing too. I’m going to try and accept the love and help of others. I mean… people don’t just shower that shit down on you unless you deserve it.
Peace, love, health.